Some people ask me why I am still single.. I honestly (and secretly) get
embarrassed by the question because I know at the back of their minds
they already know. In my culture the "tinier" the woman, the more
attractive she is to men..Sometimes I think maybe because most asian men
feel emasculated for being smaller in size than western men.. and
sometimes i wish i were born in America or other western countries where
being overweight was not such a big deal.
I have always been chubby and bigger than most girls. I have been bullied and teased for being this way . That is why I enjoyed my childhood and enjoy being older than being in my pubertal and adolescent years. I have been rejected by guys I liked no matter how nice i was. I did well in school though, found my bff, love to write and daydream about finding my one true love. I had only 3 serious relationships, one just more awful than the other. Today in my 30s' I am single in the truest sense of the word, I just do what I can to find some meaning in my life. I love nature and it is my sanctuary when life gets too crazy at times..I know my weight has a lot to do with my being single but i also know that men around here, although not too good looking themselves are too picky and want a "tiny" wife ...
I still dream of my one true love. I hope to find him still. God bless him and keep him safe if he is out there..
I have always been chubby and bigger than most girls. I have been bullied and teased for being this way . That is why I enjoyed my childhood and enjoy being older than being in my pubertal and adolescent years. I have been rejected by guys I liked no matter how nice i was. I did well in school though, found my bff, love to write and daydream about finding my one true love. I had only 3 serious relationships, one just more awful than the other. Today in my 30s' I am single in the truest sense of the word, I just do what I can to find some meaning in my life. I love nature and it is my sanctuary when life gets too crazy at times..I know my weight has a lot to do with my being single but i also know that men around here, although not too good looking themselves are too picky and want a "tiny" wife ...
I still dream of my one true love. I hope to find him still. God bless him and keep him safe if he is out there..
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